Taylor Swift in Band Hero

Taylor Swift in Band Hero. its cute <3 width="560" height="340">
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"the older you are the more problems and dilemmas you get"
is it true, or our minds are just set to believe that or what?

i dont know if u call this a 'problem' cuz i hardly got problems before like my friends usually call it as 'problems'. seriously, i dont want to go for that Ms&MrUnivThingy. Please? Fyi, i dont like being forced. its not that i hate fashion, i love fashion but i dont want to be the centre of attention. hello, remember my aim in life? i dont wanna be a supermodel or sth like that.

and i do have other reasons. those reasons are more to privacy and why do u wanna know?
i know im like super annoying right now for those who wants to actually join.
and i know im so going to be humiliated on stage. i hate humiliation.
maybe u guys never experience it. but i have. and its so much hurtful. i got too much humiliation and now i dont even know the word 'embarrassed' as i got used to it too much.
maybe u guys will ask "if u're used to embarrassed, then go for it"
yeah its easy if u say that. like very very very easy.
fyi, that hurts. deep. and i know what it feels like.

sorry for being extraannoying.
it feels good for letting your uneg2 out. i know this is internet. everyone will just easily read this and bam i got trouble at school. or maybe many of u will start avoiding me. ehm i dont know.
i WILL try to speak to my teacher about this- i dont wanna join.
and hey, i actually want not-join cuz i actually want to help my girlfriends at the backstage. i know they WILL need help with the dress and girl stuff. 0r i can help taking the pics :)

i know im too much lebay and exaggerating, but apparently i cant say "Ms&Mr Unvrsal" correctly. i get eneg tiba2. and i dont know why but currently i hate looking at dresses. usually i love window shopping but yesterday went to Empo with fransisca and i get disgusted touching at those dresses. uhhh i know lebay! but please, understand will ya?

i wrote on my blog, because i dont think i do have a place to share. i dont think my friends will do understand, maybe they will, but they get it wrong. its a very complicated life. my sister? febry shes in china and she (i think) prefer her friends more. michelle? ah shes hopeless. mom & dad? ummm i ll try talkin to my mom but she dont 100percently get it..
and i dont even think u guys (reading this) wud understand me either. u'll get in mind "omg she's so effing selfish" or "what is wrong with her" believe me guys, i know selfish and not. but i do have a private reason to not join.

okay. bye. tomorrow is monthly test. wish me luck (or not) :* sorry for the annoying post btw :)